Dear Diary. 1 month of efforts = ???

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I'm feeling so down with the scale numbers! I started working out every morning and watch calories with a goal to lose 2kg in 1 month.

It's been 3 weeks and i'm 1 kg up from my starting weight!!! It's just frustrating. I was feeling so pumped up these weeks cause i had never managed to keep me in workout schedule for more than 1-2 weeks. But the scale numbers make me sad.

I know, i will keep pushing. And i don't really need advice i just wanted to share this SHIT!!!!!!!

I wish the fact alone that my everyday life improved was enough for me to feel nice and keep going.

I am just sick of going through the same thing the last years... and never reach my final goals. I go somewhere between and then stop trying and also abandon my lifestyle changes, so i go back to where i started soon after that.

Working out makes me happy! I try not to see it only as means of losing weight. I should have it in my life cause it is good. WHY CAN'T I????