Before my sjogren's and gastroparesis I was working out and having fun. Arm press was nearly 50 lbs overhand. Today it was 9 lbs per hand. I feel both proud that I showed up but also so very sad . I fell a couple times but my left leg likes to give me trouble.

The person I was seems gone forever. I am trying to grow into this new me but I hate her. I want the old me back and I wish this version would to hell. I truly feel for other people who are going through their own demons. It sucks.