Today I decided to do an actual workout with Brian. I bombed most of it but at least I showed up and did it to beast of my ability. I truly hate how badly I did it. But I have to realize that I pretty much have to start from the beginning.

The Sjogren's and Gastroparesis really so a number. I am so skinny and trying to eat is a true chore . Whats really awful is my workout clothes that didn't fit me are now too big. I feel like I can't win.

I believe Kelli knows a but about starting over. I will say that I went to physical therapy the other day and they said I am very strong and all the workouts I've done over the years has really helped a great deal. I just want me back.