Day 3 of No Eating Out Accountability and Stress Redux Challenge insights
I realized today after meditation that I definitely have a problem, and thatās related to ordering out based on my emotions from work. If Iām dreading work, Iāll use eating out as a way to avoid it. And when I order out after work, itās because the work day was hard. And when Iām too stressed out and panicking about a work related thing, I completely lose my appetite.
Iām just too stressed out at work. With a new position and poor onboarding, Iāve been making mistakes and Iām always nervous. Itās a high stress job, but with the current job market, Iām staying, which I ordinarily wouldnāt. My old job was something that was stressful, but I was very good at.
With my new job, I have imposter syndrome and so Iāve been using eating out and food as a way to combat that, but at the end of the day, itās still there. Thereās a lot I have to learn about the job, but Iām told that Iāll learn it on the job - but not really. Iām also in nonstop meetings, so I have to work at night. Others are able to get work done during the day, but I usually eat out/eat processed food during the meetings since Iām so tired of being in the meetings/get irritated that Iām wasting time on a meeting.
And Iām pretty tired at work a lot from the sugar crashes/get anxiety during the day when Iām eating processed food, so then I stick to eating clean when Iām really stressed out at work and need to concentrate, but once the work stress is over, my appetite returns.
When Iām on vacation/on the weekends, I donāt eat out. The stress redux challenge is teaching me that Iām stressed out and self sabotaging myself through food to sort of say that thatās the reason I didnāt do that well on a job task.
I think the meetings have been hard to have dedicated time to get things done.
Today was the worst when there was a miscommunication and I missed a deadline by several hours. I was eating chocolate to deal with the stress, and I think the sugar and caffeine I had led to a full-on anxiety attack where I was too overwhelmed to do anything. Iām often too overwhelmed at work. Maybe Iāll have to ask more questions or change my work environment to not being remote anymore.
Either way, I think that Iāll go into an office in order to get work done more efficiently and start planning more with timelines/big picture to not miss anything else. I feel like an idiot at work nearly all the time, which is different to when I worked in a different field and was the SME.
But Iāll have to address work head on and not hide behind food; it just leads to worse stress.
Day 3 of No Eating Out Accountability and Stress Redux Challenge insights
I realized today after meditation that I definitely have a problem, and thatās related to ordering out based on my emotions from work. If Iām dreading work, Iāll use eating out as a way to avoid it. And when I order out after work, itās because the work day was hard. And when Iām too stressed out and panicking about a work related thing, I completely lose my appetite.
Iām just too stressed out at work. With a new position and poor onboarding, Iāve been making mistakes and Iām always nervous. Itās a high stress job, but with the current job market, Iām staying, which I ordinarily wouldnāt. My old job was something that was stressful, but I was very good at.
With my new job, I have imposter syndrome and so Iāve been using eating out and food as a way to combat that, but at the end of the day, itās still there. Thereās a lot I have to learn about the job, but Iām told that Iāll learn it on the job - but not really. Iām also in nonstop meetings, so I have to work at night. Others are able to get work done during the day, but I usually eat out/eat processed food during the meetings since Iām so tired of being in the meetings/get irritated that Iām wasting time on a meeting.
And Iām pretty tired at work a lot from the sugar crashes/get anxiety during the day when Iām eating processed food, so then I stick to eating clean when Iām really stressed out at work and need to concentrate, but once the work stress is over, my appetite returns.
When Iām on vacation/on the weekends, I donāt eat out. The stress redux challenge is teaching me that Iām stressed out and self sabotaging myself through food to sort of say that thatās the reason I didnāt do that well on a job task.
I think the meetings have been hard to have dedicated time to get things done.
Today was the worst when there was a miscommunication and I missed a deadline by several hours. I was eating chocolate to deal with the stress, and I think the sugar and caffeine I had led to a full-on anxiety attack where I was too overwhelmed to do anything. Iām often too overwhelmed at work. Maybe Iāll have to ask more questions or change my work environment to not being remote anymore.
Either way, I think that Iāll go into an office in order to get work done more efficiently and start planning more with timelines/big picture to not miss anything else. I feel like an idiot at work nearly all the time, which is different to when I worked in a different field and was the SME.
But Iāll have to address work head on and not hide behind food; it just leads to worse stress.