Motivation after a long break

I haven't been working out for more than a month because of health problems. My nutrition has been very unbalanced and not so clean during this period. So... my body changed and now I feel very discouraged with starting over while I see my body so different and unpleasant. Every day I think tomorrow will be better, but when tomorrow arrives I have no mood, no stregnth, no motivation to change anything. I have always had a difficult relationship with food. I suffered from anorexia, then binge eating and now I'm overweight. FB helped me during my depression to change my mind and the way I saw at myself. Now I feel like two years ago as nothing had a sense. Sorry for my long message and my bad english. I only wanted to share my feelings. I love this community