Hello guys, i hope everyone is doing great!

Lately i've been diving back into my body dysmorphia syndrome, whenever i see my reflection in a mirror i see a huge monster. I literally avoid to look my reflection even on cars and honestly i don't know why this is happening so intense.

I'm trying so hard to maintain my eating habbits, to work out but i feel there is no progress in my body, sometimes i feel i wanna escape from my body and it's such a shame, i'm really ashamed for writing this.

I see other people happier, living a normal life and i wish i could be the same, i always have to watch what i eat not to bloat, not to get fat and it's feels draining. And i'm afraid everyone will reject me because i don't have a perfect body with no flaws.

Sorry my huge rant, i know i have to seek help, but i wanted to share because i know maybe some of us still feel the same.