Found an old picture in my phone and I'm forever grateful for Daniel and Kelli and all of my FB family on here

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Was looking through my phone and found this picture my daughter took of me. I didn't realise it was in my phone, and the horrible thing is, I know exactly how I felt in that moment. I took the kids to the park and after five mins I was tired and hot, but I didn't take my jumper off because I was so upset about my weight. So I sat down on the bench and I looked around at all the mums who looked so nice in their summer outfits playing with their kids and I don't think I've ever felt that kind of sadness before. I felt like I had let my kids down and that I was an embarrassment. I felt so alone and lonely because I was embarrassed to talk to anyone about my weight because I had gotten myself that way so why should I complain? It was my fault. I still have moments where I feel like that and feel like it's going so slow but I now know I'm 100% never getting that unhealthy again not just for me but for my kids. I'm 24 kilos down and mentally and physically I can be strong but it's a work in progress. Ive always had an unhealthy relationship with food and exercise, but the last four months I've been with fitness blender my mindset has changed and I now look forward to working out and planning my meals and I don't say no to things if I want them. If i hadn't of found Daniel and Kelli I can 100% say I'd be loosing weight in an unhealthy way eating little calories and over exercising, I'm just forever grateful that I can show my kids the healthy way to live. At first yes I was exercising a lot, but once I asked people on here for advise/help I now workout the correct amount so thank you everybody on here for your help and support I can't tell you all how much you all help. I hope kelli and Daniel know what an amazing place they've created for us all. Thank you so much xx