Hi FB family! This is pretty much a vent, but also to see if anyone else had gone through this or is currently going through this. It's been two and a half years since I started FB and it has definitely changed my life for the better (thanks Kelli and Daniel!) I started initially because I had really poor diet, was overweight and diagnosed with a metabolic disorder. Now after two and half years, although I've lost the excess weight (40lbs worth), gained strength (I can do one full push-up now y'all), flexibility and control over my body,..I haven't gained control over my disorder.
And because of this lack of control, I think I have acquired a bad habit. I could eat my main meal, and then eat another extra meal after that, and still feel hungry. In fact I seem to get MORE hungry after a meal (as if that's even possible but who the heck knows since my body is great at betraying me in many ways). This is creating such a bad relationship between me and food now. I feel so upset every time it happens (like right now) but it still keeps happening every day for at least one meal. So I keep tracking every calories now and pre-planning meals and I don't want to do that for the rest of my life. Pre-planning my meals doesn't stop me from eating a lot in one sitting either. I feel like I'm losing control.
At first I thought "Hmm, maybe I'm not eating enough?" However, I'm eating plenty (2000+ calories and I'm short 5'0). I thought maybe my food isn't 'balanced' macro wise or nutrition wise, but nope I tried different combinations (more or less carbs, more protein, more fat, less fat, less protein etc.) and included nutrient-dense food (some of the recipes I got from here, thanks to #Andrewcomplete and others for posting their wonderful recipes. I especially love seeing meals by FTT (if you're reading this hello from another Bengali person missing traditional food)). I'm so confused. I know this may just be due to what I was diagnosed with but it has never happened to me before this year. I'm trying to make an appointment and sorting things out because honestly I am a bit scared and very frustrated and angry with myself. Planning meals, over-eating, calories and macros are taking up a lot of mental space. I want to reserve space for things that actually matter, I'm a student, and I just want to focus on doing well and spending time with friends and family, not food.
Not in the best head space food wise
Hi FB family! This is pretty much a vent, but also to see if anyone else had gone through this or is currently going through this. It's been two and a half years since I started FB and it has definitely changed my life for the better (thanks Kelli and Daniel!) I started initially because I had really poor diet, was overweight and diagnosed with a metabolic disorder. Now after two and half years, although I've lost the excess weight (40lbs worth), gained strength (I can do one full push-up now y'all), flexibility and control over my body,..I haven't gained control over my disorder.
And because of this lack of control, I think I have acquired a bad habit. I could eat my main meal, and then eat another extra meal after that, and still feel hungry. In fact I seem to get MORE hungry after a meal (as if that's even possible but who the heck knows since my body is great at betraying me in many ways). This is creating such a bad relationship between me and food now. I feel so upset every time it happens (like right now) but it still keeps happening every day for at least one meal. So I keep tracking every calories now and pre-planning meals and I don't want to do that for the rest of my life. Pre-planning my meals doesn't stop me from eating a lot in one sitting either. I feel like I'm losing control.
At first I thought "Hmm, maybe I'm not eating enough?" However, I'm eating plenty (2000+ calories and I'm short 5'0). I thought maybe my food isn't 'balanced' macro wise or nutrition wise, but nope I tried different combinations (more or less carbs, more protein, more fat, less fat, less protein etc.) and included nutrient-dense food (some of the recipes I got from here, thanks to #Andrewcomplete and others for posting their wonderful recipes. I especially love seeing meals by FTT (if you're reading this hello from another Bengali person missing traditional food)). I'm so confused. I know this may just be due to what I was diagnosed with but it has never happened to me before this year. I'm trying to make an appointment and sorting things out because honestly I am a bit scared and very frustrated and angry with myself. Planning meals, over-eating, calories and macros are taking up a lot of mental space. I want to reserve space for things that actually matter, I'm a student, and I just want to focus on doing well and spending time with friends and family, not food.
That's pretty much it