Health Update: 3/4/19

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I’m annoyed. I’m very freaking annoyed. Today was a horrible day. I increased my oatmeal as my parents told me too and I felt bloated, disgusting, and crappy all morning. I had stomach pain and struggled with the bathroom. But then I felt better and ate waffles for dinner and then a bagel with peanut butter and jam. But then I couldn’t stop eating. I kept eating. I had a protein ball, and goldfish, and popcorn with more goldfish and cereal. And now I feel like crap mentally. I hate myself for eating so much. Also I don’t feel physically full which is pissing me off. I’m sick of this. Now I feel like I should restrict tomorrow because I over ate. I told my parents and they told me to stop eating today and that tomorrow would be a new day. But I’m scared! Of gaining weight, of having to eat more everyday, of losing control when I can’t stop eating. I’m so sick of this! I just want to be normal.